alone again, naturaly

the choice I have made to stop commenting on other blogs for awhile is mostly about respect, not for myself, rather for the blog owners and readers. The chance to give an opinion on a great blog affords me an enormous amount of respect regardless of whether anyone agrees with me or not. Or even posts a reply. It is my wish to learn as much as I can before my opinions can no longer be contained by me and I start leaving comments again.
Writing here should fill my need to communicate for a bit.
Many thanks to Siva, Liz and especially Ann for their respect and support.
I am trying to link to VSA here
IT WORKS, YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

the lesser of two evils, or more

as one follows the political discourse of the current debate as to what direction this nation, and the world in general, should move toward it is clear that there is enough merit to go around. Clinton, Romney, Obama, Edwards, Thompson, McCain, Giuliani and the rest. Looking into the candidates views can seem like looking into a crystal ball that is cloudy. At first glance we think we understand, but it seems the closer we look the less we can see. The use of strategists, campaign managers, media advisers and similar people is, it seems, all about getting elected, not about serving. Why is it we always end up voting for the lesser of two evils? Was Washington the lesser of two evils?

whew!

I just spent 2 hours reading blogs. I found a few that I liked, somewhat liked. The vast majority were personal talks to friends of the authors or just crap. It was OK though. Good to see people speaking out. I do hope to see the every day people evolve and make good use of this freedom.

light at the end of the tunnel

this means I can see the end of the tunnel I now travel. The walls are smooth and have no places for me to hold on to. So I must be very careful as I proceed. I have made the blogosphere most of my new life but it falls way short of a good replacement for the old one. Some of the people in this place are very kind, some are indifferent and a few are just plain mean spirited. Since this the way life has always been it comes as no surprise.The pain and joy as well as the disappointment mirror what is all around us every day so I will continue my search for happiness. I am lost in a sea of voices. One can only hope the right person hears mine and answers. If this should happen, I pray we both realize the benefit.

selling us large

with yet another study telling us it is our fault that so many of us are overweight because we are eating wrong, I would ask "where does the wrong food come from and why?" Some seem to think that our standard of living depends on the right of business to sell us just about anything it makes as long as it kills us slowly. "Let the buyer beware" is now being augmented by "and the children of buyers and their children's children too." Is wealth for a minority worth the health of the majority?

something needs to be done

Spam, identity theft, online crimes of all kinds seem to invade our lives at all turns. I have always fought the intrusion of those that seek to control my life. But now one can't be sure who is doing the controlling. If I must curtail or stop my online life to thwart the kind of shit that is happening I will be extremely pissed off. I know that any lock can be picked. The solution in the past was to make the lock too time consuming for all but the best to make the attempt. It seems now that even a poor or mediocre hacker can get rewards. We need our computer scientists to focus on our cyber-safety before focusing on the next for profit application.

I haven't heard this one in awhile

" look at the wood and the way he forms it
must have taken him years
I asked him the price and he said it was free
and I couldn't believe my ears
tell me old man, how long have you lived
to have such amazing talent
I'm 20 years short of a century
and the best years are in the balance

when he was young his mother fed him frogs and a wide assortment of lizards
she made him tough, wise and strange and gave him the mind of a wizard"
Jefferson Airplane

I BLAME BARBARA

I usually don't comment on specific politicians, BUT George W. is a self serving, self absorbed, extremely arrogant ass! The reason I am posting this is I just watched one of his press conferences, sheesh!

As the world turns, I burn

Again I find myself talking into the netherworld. Many do this too. 75 million blogs and counting, so in that respect I don't feel so alone. If one does the math, though, one realizes it is imposable to view and communicate to most so we make choices. I have chosen a few to link to but I am sure there are many more worth reading. The ones on this list, as I have found out, are just the tip of the iceberg.
As in life we find some things that are a waste. I am so happy people are so free with the links and other sites so I can follow my path but with help. The danger for me is falling in love with someone thru the words of the posts or the kind way they write to me. There is one in particular that has captured my fancy. This person has done nothing to try and fool me. (how would I know if they did?) Intellectually I know this can not be, but still my heart beats faster when I see or write the name. Though I usually go my own way, AAA leads, I follow. "we didn't start the fire. The world's been burning since the world's been turnin' "
Me too!

yea, well

"wondering and thinking all the way down the road
I once loved a woman, a child I am told
I gave her my heart but she wanted my soul
don't think twice, it's alright"


maybe some day I'll understand, maybe not. So I have moved on.

royal treatment

I am so blessed that sometimes people think there is no downside for me. Of course this is not the case. The people I deal with every day seek me out and I allow myself to be found. They shower me with gifts and praise. On the outside it may look as if I have it made in many respects. That is true on the surface. After I go home or turn off the computer, there is nothing for me but reruns on TV.

cyber blues

The cyber world can be a wonderful place. One can do research, keep up with the news from anywhere and everywhere, touch base with family and friends and a host of other activities. There are so many things that I handle online that would be imposable for me otherwise. Progress can be very good. On the other hand I have found that if one can not blend virtual with actual something is missing. REALITY! I may be alone in my feelings of loss. The feeling one gets from a real hug or kiss. Watching a play in a theater with others. Sigh! I really do miss the interaction of the pre-internet world sometimes.

"ZARDOZ"

1973 movie with Sean Connery set way in the future. Not his best but probably his strangest. Not Bond-like at all. DEFINITELY gives us something to talk about. Things were really, really weird in the 70's.

well hush my mouth

Literally, self imposed. I have a tendency to talk to much. Those that know me make excuses for me. Things like "what you say is interesting" or "that's true". I am going to curb my tongue as much as possible. This is being done with great effort on my part. As a part of my interest in people I have listened to many so I always have something I can add to a conversation, and usually do. The things I say may have value, they may not, but they come out of my mouth regardless. Wish me luck.

crap

"when I look back on all the crap I learned in high school, it's a wonder I can think at all...
but my lack of education hasn't hurt me none, I can read the writing on the wall." Paul Simon (Kodachrome)
Some times we equate intelligence with wisdom. I can tell you from my own experience that is a big mistake. In fact I have found that being way smart can be detrimental to one's wisdom. It is all to easy to think up rational reasons to support unwise choices. Wisdom does not come in degrees, a thought or action is either wise or it is not. We must use our intelligence to figure, we use wisdom to know. Since I am guilty of many unwise choices, I'll take wisdom over smarts any day.

some times I cry

I was looking at many of the wonderful things people are doing and I realize how shortsighted I have been. With all I could have done, all I should have done, my life is sadly empty. I mistakenly thought that the world was evolving toward a far out place of reason and truth. It is not. The thrust of human endeavor seems to be the same as it has always been. I have stopped to smell the roses along the way, but not nearly enough. Tech, law, art, games, energy, politics, love, sex, travel are just a few of the things that have evolved while I have stayed the same. Why was I so sure I was going the right way? Maybe it was because few were going my way. Those that were not seemed lost. Well, it seems so was I. One needs to expand in an expanding world. I started out running but NOW I'll take my time. At least all I have left.
In this regard I must tell you of a visit to the Alamo in San Antonio, Texas. The reverence, the quiet, the history were the topic of much of the conversation between myself and my wife for the rest of our drive to San Diego and on to Santa Barbara. The US. had stolen the land. We eventually reached the conclusion that most, if not all, of civilization's greatest moments involved theft in one way or another.
Time has stolen most of my life without me even noticing.

As the world turns

When too many people jump on the bandwagon I seem to feel the need to go elsewhere. It is not that I don't like to be with others, in fact when I know where y'all are I visit often. It is just that I like to explore. The blogosphere has so many people that some times it stifles exploration because no matter where I go there are too many waiting. I will continue to visit to see what everyone is up to, but I will only leave a few comments every so often. You don't need a weatherman to know which way the wind blows.